The memories stagger in upon me chaotically, as in a dream. Insects stinging, drawing blood. My hands, my breasts, trapped in unyielding metal. My movements secured with hooks buried unfathomable inside my body: I am filled, I am owned. I walk like a marionette, with every step the hooks pull with cruelty inside my ass and my vagina. When I am released it’s merely to be stretched over a log and staked out in the grass; again I am left powerless, unable to protect myself from insects, biting my open body. My head secured in location with stakes and a gag. Shrieking as a worm is dangled over my face, crawling into my nose, squirming its slippery skin over my tongue and my lips. And yet one memory towers above the rest of my excruciation; bloke called it the mala mansio.
In the box, that mind is a shell. 
Where is my torrent of fantasy ? Here is the silence that follows the thunder and blood? 
I breathe in this space, 4 corners no light- four corners this restrain me 
and 
I am restrained into this location. 
I am held here like a moon in helpless orbit.
My voice echoes so strangely from these aggressive corners. 
Every moment my panic threatens to overtake and drown me.
Guy has kicked the door shut: the echo surges through my bared body. 
Some booming metal doom. 
And now- the moving pictures? The glory I was drenched in? 
My eyes are open but there is only darkness.
The warped dreams begin: perverted worlds for reflections to inhabit. 
They stomp over my fear; leave me restless, electric. 
This girl in the box- slippery and throbbing: can it be? 
I envy the moment of my recognition, some towering bliss. 
Rusty walls tremble upon me. My fingers reek animal fear. 
Hell is so small.
I lean over the precipice of some dangerous understanding. The red drums And roarings seem so far away; is someone there? A voice rings hysterical- A scream: my own?
This haze somehow soothing- the metallic womb. I float free from the Cords and tangles, free from the traps of motive. Free of any will: but that I have chosen.

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