The memories stagger in upon me chaotically, as in a dream. Insects stinging, drawing blood. My hands, my breasts, trapped in unyielding metal. My movements secured with hooks buried deep inside my body: I am filled, I am owned. I walk like a marionette, with every step the hooks pull with cruelty inside my ass and my cunny. When I am released it is just only to be stretched over a log and staked out in the grass; again I am left powerless, unable to protect myself from insects, biting my open flesh. My head secured in place with stakes and a gag. Shrieking as a worm is dangled over my face, crawling into my nose, squirming its slippery skin over my tongue and my lips. And yet 1 memory towers above the rest of my torment; this chub called it the mala mansio.
In the box, this mind is a shell. 
Where is my torrent of fantasy ? Here is the silence that follows the thunder and blood? 
I breathe in this space, four corners no light- four corners that tie me 
and 
I am fastened into this place. 
I am held here like a moon in powerless orbit.
My voice echoes so strangely from these aggressive corners. 
Every moment my panic threatens to overtake and drown me.
Chap has kicked the door shut: the echo surges through my naked body. 
Some booming metal doom. 
And now- the moving pics? The glory I was drenched in? 
My eyes are open but there is only darkness.
The warped dreams begin: freakish worlds for reflections to inhabit. 
They stomp over my fear; leave me restless, electric. 
This girl in the box- slippery and throbbing: can it be? 
I envy the moment of my recognition, some towering bliss. 
Rusty walls tremble upon me. My fingers reek animal fear. 
Hell is so small.
I lean over the precipice of some dangerous understanding. The red drums And roarings seem so far away; is someone there? A voice rings hysterical- A scream: my own?
That haze somehow soothing- the metallic womb. I float free from the Ropes and tangles, free from the traps of motive. Free of each will: but this I have chosen.

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