The memories stagger in upon me chaotically, as in a fantasy . Insects stinging, drawing . My hands, my breasts, trapped in unyielding metal. My movements secured with hooks buried unfathomable inside my body: I am filled, I am owned. I walk like a marionette, with every step the hooks pull with cruelty inside my ass and my cunt. When I am released it’s only to be stretched over a log and staked out in the grass; again I am left helpless, unable to protect myself from insects, biting my open flesh. My head secured in place with stakes and a gag. Shrieking as a worm is dangled over my face, crawling into my nose, squirming its slippery body over my tongue and my lips. And yet 1 memory towers above the rest of my excruciation; fellow called it the mala mansio.
In the box, this mind is a shell. 
Where is my torrent of fantasy ? Here is the silence that follows the thunder and ? 
I breathe in this space, four corners no light- four corners this restrain me 
and 
I am restrained into this place. 
I am held here like a moon in helpless orbit.
My voice echoes so strangely from those aggressive corners. 
Every moment my panic threatens to overtake and drown me.
This guy has kicked the door shut: the echo surges throughout that my unclothed flesh. 
Some booming metal doom. 
And now- the moving pics? The glory I was drenched in? 
My eyes are open but there is just only darkness.
The warped dreams begin: whimsical worlds for reflections to inhabit. 
They stomp over my fear; leave me restless, electric. 
This girl in the box- slippery and throbbing: can it be? 
I envy the moment of my recognition, some towering bliss. 
Rusty walls tremble upon me. My fingers reek animal fear. 
Hell is so small.
I lean over the precipice of some dangerous understanding. The red drums And roarings seem so far away; is someone there? A voice rings hysterical- A scream: my own?
This haze somehow soothing- the metallic womb. I float free from the Ropes and tangles, free from the traps of reason. Free of each will: but this I have chosen.

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